Sometimes we just need some quiet time to reflect and think of things, life, mistakes, regrets, etc. Sometimes being able to get that quiet time is good thing, and sometime it can be bad. I'm not sure which it is for me right now. What is it when the little things start adding up to the point of where it just seems big to you now? That's where I am at this moment and point in my life. Where I have let so much go that it's now the little things, that normally I should and I'm sure others would let it just go. But why should I have to let it go, I mean I'm saying, I can ask a simple request like "call me tomorrow", I don't think it's too hard to pick up a phone and call someone, do you? I mean there are exactly 24 hours in a day right, or did I miss something? Someone explain to me how you can think about somebody all the time, but not pick up a phone and dial that person number ALL DAY! I'm just saying. And no, this is not the first time you have gone all day and not called, but does it ever occur to others that just like you are supposed to be their ear and their backbone, that just maybe you need and want the same thing in return. I mean, maybe there is a reason the request was made (although it should NEVER have to be made in my opinion).
I see it now, he's gotten too comfortable. It's cool, it's my fault, I'll take that, but I'll also get that back in check too. Let's not forget what we dealing with here my friend, because do trust and believe there should NEVER be a point where you get too comfortable in certain situations. One would get tired of always trying to fulfill someone else's request but when they make a simple one as much as take your pointer finger dial a couple digits, and open your ears and mouth, and that doesn't get fulfilled, that can put one is a bad place, the place that I am right now. The place where I've turned my phone off for two days, yep that point. The point where I'm grown enough to tell you that I have an attitude, yep over the fact that you didn't pick up the d@mn phone all day and call me! Yep sure do, and nope I don't feel bad or childish behind it. ESPECIALLY when I ask you why didn't you and you say “I got caught up doing what I was doing" ...OH REALLY!!! So your day is just that busy that you got caught up doing what you were doing. Nope didn't bother to ask what that meant because it didn't matter, because at the end of the day, there is absolutely nothing you can tell me that should be more important that hearing my voice! Yep, I put me on a pedestal, sure did, there is NOTHING that should be more important. Because I make you an importance, I try to fulfill needs that are not even easy to fulfill, but I do it, even when I don't have it to do it, I still do it. But again, I can ask something SIMPLE, like call me tomorrow. MAYBE there was a reason I asked, hell maybe not, but that's not the point now it is! NOPE, it's not, it's the LEAST you can do in my opinion.
Maybe it may look like I'm playing a game, but really it's not about a game, I really don't have anything to say because someone has gotten a little too comfortable for my liking. So maybe a couple of days of wondering why the heck my phone is going to voicemail will peak your interest, and if it doesn't then OH FUCKING WELL! Because the week I'm having, that's how I'm feeling, if it's not important to talk to me, then guess what, I won't make it important to talk to you either!
NOW MY VENTING IS DONE FOR THE DAY!
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