Well I didn't wake up a billionarie, but I did wake up so that's good enough for me! You know it's amazing the growth you realize when you know God is using you for his good. Growth, that's the name of the game, that's what we all should be striving for, to be better than we were last year, last month, last week and even yesterday. This morning I received confirmation of that and I thank God for that. It's not about me, it's never been about me, it's always been about God. I think we sometimes get so caught up in life and our personal issues that we honestly forget that, that no matter what's going on in the world and in our lives, it doesn't matter! If we focus our minds on what it's all about which is God, then things will workout for HIS good, not ours. I don't deserve any of the grace I've been giving. Yes I am a good person, yes I have a good heart, yes I try to do my best by people, but I'm not perfect. I have done wrong, I've said things wrong, I've had bad thoughts, I've gone down wrong paths, but I've still been givin grace! So if you get nothing from this blog today, just Thank HIM, because even when you aren't looking out for yourself, he is still looking out for you! Even when you're worrying and wondering how you are going to make it and you haven't once thought to just give it to him, or given him enough credit to know that he will work it out regardless!
So anyway, back to the subject at hand! SIGNS, you know it's crazy how things fall into place when you are really fulfilling your purpose. Maybe my purpose is to write and to reach others with my writing and also helps me to heal scars that I didn't even realize weren't healed. So this morning as I'm sitting at my desk, supposed to be working right...and as usual I turn on my tv to watch whatever I have recorded on DVR. Well I decided to go ahead and catch up on the new season of MobWives. Well what do you know, Dertia(one of the few original members) has decided to write a freaking book about her life. Now her husband is not on board with this idea, but what she said hit home for me and at the same time is the exact same things that a couple of my friends said to me yesterday when I shared the news that I was writing a book. She said this would be therapeutic for her as she writes this book and that is the exact same thing I feel this will be for me. Who knew I needed theraphy...LOL.
Well the book started yesterday, did I already tell you guys that in my last post? I don't think I did, I think I was actually talking about the fact that I'm here DEALING. Which I love my post from yesterday by the way, somehow I'm wondering in that will be the beginning of my book, like what leads up to the actual beginning, who knows, but I love it! So while talking to my bff Amy yesterday she is actually the one that reminded me of where my thoughts and outlooks changed, she actually brought up memories and emotions that I honestly forgot about it! It was like a surreal moment, I had to sit back and think, "dang she is absolutely right, that is the event in my life that totally changed my outlook on a lot of things". So yes I have the exact starting point of where my book will begin! I'm so excited about this journey that you guys are about to embark with me. The exciting part is that we are really seriously going to experience this together, because things I've fogotten will be as if I'm experiencing it again all over again, but now I can actually deal with it and understand what lesson it role it played in my life and in the decisions I've made in my life. By the end of this journey I will go from DEALING to WINNING, do trust and believe.
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