You made me sleep on it!

So how is it that I'm asked to make a change, a change in order to benefit our relationship?  A change that is not easy to just turn on and do, being that it's been a long 20+ years of me being this way, but then you turn around and opt to do the same thing I normally would do prior to you asking me to change or excuse me "try to change for me"!  See this is what I'm talking about, how do you asking someone else to change the way they communicate when it's something that is affecting us, but then you turn around and instead of us just talking about how you are feeling and what is on your mind, you tell me that you put it in a letter.  You thought you were slick when you tried to sneak in “since this is the way you like to communicate, I communicated to you as you like".  BS! I could have said something then, but I was having a good day, so I decided not to call you out on it.  Some may take that as holding back instead of just calling him on it, but that statement did not affect my mood or my attitude or our relationship at the time.  But now we are a week out and I've still not received this freaking letter.  Now on Saturday I knew that there was a letter coming my way, since you let me know to check my mail.  No mail on Saturday, Monday, Tuesday, and now Wednesday. 

Last night I brought it to your attention that I haven't gotten any mail yet, and you say "yeh I figured since you're in a good mood" PAUSE....... so basically you're letting me know that there is some things in this correspondence that I’m really not going to like, that really is not going to sit well with me huh.  So I said, well why don't you just go ahead and tell me, but NO, you want me to get the letter.  I tried yall, I really tried not to let it mess with my mood, but how do you stop it from happening?  No really if somebody has a trick, please let ya girl know what's up.  Now my mind has to be on this for what another week! Now if you want to piss me off, I mean really really piss me off, tell me that you need to tell me something or that there is something I need to know but then don't tell me and make me wait! UGHHHHHHHH, because here we are on Wednesday and I haven't gotten the letter yet, which means you probably won't get the letter back (letting you know why it hasn't been delivered in the first place) til Thursday or Friday, which mean I'm likely not to get the letter til Monday or Tuesday, and if you think I'm just go sit on a phone and breathe because you want me to wait on a freaking letter, YOU MUST BE CRAZY! 

I was ready yall, it was going to be called "Day 1 of my communication change", but this negro decided he wasn't going to call back last night after I put little man to bed.  So not only did you not call back, that means you made me sleep on all the feelings and emotions that I was ready to pour out! REALLY DUDE! So now I'm sitting here at my desk letting it out to my people, waiting on this freaking phone to ring because on "Day 2 of my communication change", you will not get out many words before I say what I have to say.  And if you still choose to opt not to talk about it and wait until I receive the letter to discuss it, then guess what boo boo, you needs not dial this number til maybe Tuesday of next week, and in the event that I do not answer, take that as a sign that I have not received the blame letter yet, therefore it's no need to even accept the call! 

The nerve of you to ask me to change the way I communicate and then you decided to pull a me, how the heck is that helping this relationship, what freaking issue did that resolve?????? DON'T WORRY, I'LL WAIT!

Blown!